A night at home
It's Friday night and I am perched at the screen.. no manhunt, no gay.com.. just chatting with a few guys who were trying to con me into getting dressed only so I can get undressed again - not tonight. Then, swooping in from the darkness - Damon, half of my dream team, pops in to say hello! I am SO GEEKED! (Insert my best pornstar grin here.) These two guys Damon and Hunter, are not only Ad-gorgeous, but hella sweet!
It's been a crazy couple weeks. Against all your best advice in an act of sheer stupidity and fear, I dropped the PPO against my X. I am just not ready for the backlash that I know is coming once I am out - even though I know in my heart I won't be free till I am.
My house went on the market this week, in this economic decline we are in no telling how long it will take to sell, and the way the trust was wired the proceeds will shift back to the trust. My Father at this point still retains complete control of the trust which leaves me at his mercy. I don't so much rely on the fund for day to day living - however the sale of that house and the proceeds are a key to get me far from here.. if this news gets out before I can make this move my plans to relocate to SanDiego are history. I am screwed.
I know the X is up to something, and I suspect she has leaked some info to my Father.. which is in itself just messed up, I don't know why he still talks to her. I called him over some business with the house and got a 25 minute lecture on how I have been going out too much, too much time at the gym, too much time online, and neglecting my daughter. I allow her to live beyond her means (wtf?) and that I spoil her too much. 2 things that will piss me off quicker than quick got ready, talking down to me, and picking on my kids. But the thing that really smokes my ass is that the entire conversation was like a tired replay of everything that evil bitch has said to me in the past 2 weeks. I'm not sure what else she had to say to him but he was cold as ice.
So it's coming ya'll - It is almost palpable. After having been screwed over so many times by this petulant child I was married to all those years, I can feel it coming. What she refuses to see is that her part in my world is finished. I haven't answered or returned a call from her and I wont. Not anymore.
If she spills before I have relocated, I will still make the move. I will do whatever it takes to see to it that this will be the very last incursion she makes on my life. The gloves are off.
